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    Calvin’s Dream: From Jealousy And Pain to Love and Joy

    By Davey Wavey, Founder of Himeros.tv

    November 19, 2018

    Back in the summer heat of early September, I organized a tantric retreat for porn stars in the California desert.

    It was an experimental recipe that included the following ingredients: 4 porn stars and all their personal experiences and history, two tantric sex coaches to facilitate intense, introspective workshops, and two separate film crews with talented directors and cinematographers. Though unified in our intention to explore sexuality in fun and creative new ways, we weren’t really sure what we’d capture on camera.

    Today’s video, titled Calvin’s Dream, was born from that experiment in the desert. The film features CockyBoy exclusive Calvin Banks alongside Max Adonis and Alex Mecum. You can check out a free NSFW trailer here.

    During one of the workshops, we discussed our dreams. Calvin shared a recurring dream in which he witnesses a former lover engaged with a new sex partner. As you can imagine, such experiences are often fraught with feelings of jealousy or inadequacy. Indeed, letting go can be hard. And being happy for your partner, his new lover, and the pleasure that they’re creating, can be even harder.

    Calvin’s Dream has four chapters.

    First, Calvin enters a mysterious desert trailer and discovers his ex-boyfriend. They embrace and make love, and Calvin expresses how much he misses their connection. But then, the dream restarts.

    Calvin enters the trailer a second time. This time, he discovers his ex-boyfriend with another man. He witnesses his ex-boyfriend making love, and his pain and jealousy is apparent. As the scene unfolds, Calvin notices his ex-boyfriend’s joy and, for just a moment, a tinge of that jealousy fades away. A slight smile parts Calvin’s lips as his ex-boyfriend writhes in orgasmic joy. If you truly love someone deeply and fully, is it possible to find joy in their ecstasy – even if it’s not with you?

    The dream restarts a third time. Calvin opens the door, and finds only a mirror. His reflection teases and tempts him, and a gorgeous scene of self-pleasure unfolds. He is whole, complete and worthy. He is love-able and fuck-able. The love that Calvin seeks is something that’s always available to him. While exploding in orgasm, he tell himself: “I love you.”

    In the final chapter, Calvin approaches the trailer but doesn’t enter. He gets on his bike and peddles off into the distance. There is nothing left in the trailer for him. His lesson has been learned.

    I wasn’t sure what we’d capture on that September morning in the desert. But watching this film, it has become quite clear. We filmed a little bit of magic.

    And it’s through that magic that a final question emerges: What’s waiting for you in the desert trailer? Today, you’re invited to find out.

    Watch the trailer for Calvin’s Dream or join Himeros.tv for the full video.

    Through juicy erotic content, Davey Wavey created Himeros.tv for gay men to have hotter sex, to experience toe-curling pleasure and to fulfill their deepest desires. Learn more at Himeros.tv.

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    3 Comments

  • Reply AJ November 20, 2018 at 1:53 am

    Rather inauthentic, given that Calvin and Max aren’t really exes. It would have been much better if Max had been replaced by Calvin’s actual ex, Troy Accola.

    • Reply Davey Wavey, Founder of Himeros.tv November 20, 2018 at 9:34 am

      The issue is a real issue with which Calvin is dealing. Max is representing Calvin’s ex-partner in the film, but tapping into those same feelings and emotions.

  • Reply Kurt April 2, 2019 at 9:17 pm

    Davey, I love your site. When I come here, I get hard. I just dream of lovers like that. Love the fucking!!

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